I’ve been crazy full of nonsense ideas, but of course those often turn into not so nonsense ideas…and then the break in the dam, just kind of happens.  The other day, I pulled out one of my WAY too many Books. I have a thing, for empty books, especially ones with amazing textured papers in them, where I can press that black ink down and doodle out the mental waves of my own insanity.

A friend once told me, “in order to help you focus, just draw out a word tree, start with one word, and write down what it reminds you of and etc…etc…” and in my mind, it was a HELL of a tree, and if you look really close at the branches of a tree, in mid winter, it’s like a giant RoadMap, the trunk, the branches, the smaller branches, the buds, the leaves, the texture of it all…the MANY ways you can sprout off in life.  There is always the Main Root, the Trunk, the Main Path….and then there are the other paths, and sometimes different things grow, on those other path’s.

palms of hands, viens in leaves, branches of trees, Roadmaps

SOOOOOOoooo, I’m drawing and words are flying through my head. Sketching words and pictures as fast as I can, smiling ear to ear to think of how funny it is, that I’ve been in a dry patch MAJOR for the past few months, and then I think, Nooooooo. I’ve been creating other things, like the Spine of this new CD.  I’ve so far, decided on about 20plus songs for this new cd. My Goal was to have 35, but that’s not necessarily necessary (haaa)… I don’t have to have a certain number of songs, I just have to make my point…that could be done in 3 songs.., or 7 or 40…it wouldn’t matter. What does matter, is the Theme, the Outcome.

In 1994, I ended a long term relationship I was in. I made a pact with my soul and my life…to follow my instinct, to do what is right, and to live a life that would only be, my music and I.  But life had other plans, and introduced me to my soulmate…I  became immersed in raising 4 awesome kids, and pretty much putting music on the backburner for about a decade.  When I finally picked up my guitar again, for the 2nd phase of my life, I had been introduced to Second Life ™ and once again, began the Pathway of music.  Much has happened during that time. Much has changed me since then too. Many challenges have crossed my Path and so many wonderful souls, have touched my life.

Now, here we are, going into the final countdown of 2009, the Holidays..the holidays..the HOLIDAYS (can’t wait til it’s all done!!!) and I’m faced with  a direction to take this CD.  Yeah I KNOW I said it would be ready by Mid November, but I’m learning that I can’t decide these things, IT Decides these things. Just like the SONG dictates itself, sometimes so do our choices…they all lead to a certain destination, we’ve learned this.  There are papers all over my studio floor, sketched with little drawings, confessions, stick people, words, ideas. There is a microphone waiting patiently for a new song, and it will always be patient. I’m the one who often loses Patience, heh!  It will finish itself soon, and your patience, is wonderful. Thanks for tuning into the shows, for showing up, for presenting yourselves, your stories, your confessions, your lives…with me, For you have all been an inspiration to the making of this CD as well.

Have a wonderful holiday season, and keep coming back…the C D is nearly finished, hitting the final phases of the backbone, the spine, and soon the body will form and it will be in your mailboxes, or itunes, or amazon…waiting for you to listen to it’s stories. Peace!

-Suzen JueL