I’ve thought about updates…they’re not much, really. 140 characters or less, is pretty standard. I’ve even heard people say “Well, no need to call him or her, I just check their facebook status.” And I think, “HUH?” wow…but it’s true, isn’t it? But what does a status really say? “I’m making dinner and it sucks,”…or “Will that person in front of me stop driving like an IDIOT!”…Granted, there are many that I find of interest. Like when a musician friend of mine might be  performing and where. Is it in the Virtual world, or local? Maybe I can catch the performance. Or perhaps a social networking guru wrote an article or released their lastest ipod thoughts and it might be of interest. Oh, and Humorous youtube videos ALWAYS ROCK!’

So what’s my REAL Status update? The one with more than 140 characters. That’s difficult for me, because I’m quite vague online. I feel no need to get into personal things, my marriage, my kids, my family…I don’t share on social networks…it’s personal to me, and out of respect for them, I don’t go on and on about their personal lives either. My friends…they’re personal to me, sacred. Posting fun things, is one thing, but posting personal things about personal issues, is never going to happen on my facebook or any other social network out there.  What i CAN talk about is life…the lessons in it, things I discover, explore, show’s that I have coming up, performances I want to share, photo’s I like to experiment with, what made me smile…etc… But when I really think about it…that IS what a Blog is for, isn’t it? Just to write. It’s more like society has started Journaling online. Things we would normally write in our diary, we tend to publish online, maybe for no other reason other than…we can.  Maybe someday I’ll write about all those personal things, but meanwhile it just seems appropriate that what I write, pertain to what I’m known for…that only makes sense. I write…lyrics mostly…with this BIG GOAL of writing a book. I don’t know what it’ll be about really, there are so many directions it COULD go in, so what would be the focus? I don’t know…my life is only beginning…perhaps I’ll write ‘the book’ when I’m much much older and ready to pass on…

As far as songwriting goes, I’m in this shattered glass world. I keep finding pieces of songs in me, and writing them down, sometimes the music, sometimes the lyrics…then it just fades, like a dream. The more I try to remember it, the more it fades. Then it comes back later. I guess they could be full songs, 3 verses is kind of SMALL, but it’s not unheard of. I then forget about them, they didn’t ‘STICK’ .. they’ve got to STICK in order for me to want to do them more, some do, some don’t. I’ve learned, not to try so hard, just let it happen. Various influences in life can interrupt the cycle of writing, seasons change it…this is the time of the year my creative energy runs quite high…so even though I’m at a block with songwriting, to some degree, the creativity is coming out in all sorts of other way, ways I can fine tune, with time…just as I have with other things .. as we all do in life, some things we can fine tune, other things, need fine tuning. Ink drawings, painting, percussion, harmonica, slide guitar, and sooo many new recipes have taken up much of my time. I find it hard to just create NOTHING…time seems wasted to me, but this is simply how I operate, sitting still, isn’t an option with me, something has to be moving in a direction … a new idea, an idea that’s been nurtured and watered and is growing into something tangible…new ideas dropping around that one. And of course, SPRING CLEANING has driven me into madness with colors and directions, textures and smells….visual stimuli all around!

Yesterday my husband bought me two goldfish. They are fascinating to me. They don’t do much, nothing too interesting at this point, but neither do most ‘pets’…it takes them time to show their true personalities…sometimes it’s right away, and sometimes it’s something we’re just not accustomed to seeing…a Goldfish with personality?  Mostly they float…and eat, and then spit their food back out and then eat it and then spit it out and then chase it around a bit. I gave them a piece of broccoli and they went wild on it!!! THIS is amusing to me now.  I read all kinds of things about goldfish ( you just don’t KNOW how cool they are til you start reading about them ) and they can have peas (out of the shells) Broccoli, spinach, and a friend of mine said he gave his little tiny pieces of licorice … ? Hmmmm  .  I haven’t come up with names for them, my husband calls one “Dennis Rodman” because of the bright red cap on it….but I think ‘denise rodman’ is a denise…..if ya know what I mean.

Now add these fish to my Super Jungle I live in…with all these crazy birds outside my window…and it’s spring which  means I can start my color trend of Massive amounts of sunflowers ANYWHERE I can plant them. I am looking forward to posting the photos of the BLOOMS when they happen, which takes about 60 days. So in June…the first week’s worth of sunflowers will start to show. In a few weeks or so, I’ll start a new week or planting them ANYWHERE! haaa, and I mean anywhere! If i see a spot that I can drop a seed, I do. I just keep doing that for about a week straight….I’ve planted these new kinds of sunflowers…Lime Green, and White…as well as Crimson, red, orange, gold, yellow. Some have HUGE centers, some have small centers, some get 8 feet some get 5 feet, some get 3…so it’s going to be stunning (in my opinion) to see where they grow and how they look…(and if I actually got them in a straight line..HA!)  ALL this, for my eyes to be in constant view of Pretty Things…and because the birds go WILD on sunflowers…and the birds are such an incredible little species to me, with all their diff songs.

I’ve been distracted. That could be my status update, in 3 words.

Spring has distracted me so much, that I have fallen into different places in life, for awhile. The outcome, will be a song, or an amazing piece of color, or a new recipe….however it comes out, it’s always better to see it in front of me, taste it in my mouth, have it in my hands, or have it coming out in something audible, tangible….then to have it stuck inside.