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An old song I wrote .. DiRTY

The world has certainly throw some crazy punches! Between music, the sleeping and now wide awake muse and the constant and new changes in the Kittens….funny to call them kittens when they are practically the size of a regular house cat. They are 8 months old and btween 7 and 10 pounds each……both polydactyls with a unique walk, especi

ally 7, with his 7 claws on each front paw….he walks like a Lion Cat would….Luci, she has 6 on each paw…very easy going and gentle cat…Until recently…now she’s gone into heat….yeah at 8 months old, she finally hit that crazy cycle and she’s VERY VOCAL about this..of course 7 is almost worse,being he is the whiner cat, Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy is what he sound like, but suddenly this past day or two, a new sound, from both 7 and Luci….very new sounds, howls on a low surreal layer of sound….rather confusing for them both I think.  7 hardly knows what to do with himself and finds himself seriously attracted to Everything Luci does, then they’re both back in Kitten mode, playing and sleeping…..It completely fascinates me, every single new sound is just fascinating, they all mean something different…not to mention they’re never ending curiosity at every single thing they approach, usually good, sometimes…well sometimes curtains get shredded….

On another page…..Music has taken a mind of it’s own as of late. Springtime hit and my creative muse woke up  and went pretty wild for a period of time. She must be napping again…heavy, because now it’s more of a numbness that took over….as far as songwriting goes. She’ll awaken again…Spring keeps easing back and forth here and winter just REFUSES to let go….it’s almost 60 F one day and then 30 the next, snowing one day, thunderstorms and warm air again…then a snowstorm dumps out of nowhere….very Bipolar like this time of year is … I’ve taken a new interest in Alternative Tuning of my guitar. I really couldn’t tell you a thing about it,, as often goes, it just works and I like it and I”m not quite sure How it works, or even why, I just like it.  Working on a new song IndigO Road! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksDs6kO0pQs just something different. I find it unusually odd to video tape a song, with nothing happening….and well, I’m certainly not great at that sort of thing….But I thought I’d use my own art and photographs to match the lyrics of the song……and to fit, best i could to what the song translates….the lyrics are even in the video!!! Was fun to do for me, absolutely a nice little pool of creative fun to splash around in! Go check it out.

On another page…..how many pages is this so far?  The  Living Room #13 was moved, quite suddenly and is now located at House of Flames Performing Arts COmplex.  http://slurl.com/secondlife/House%20of%20Flames/186/151/1576 …that will take you rght there in Second life…and as you know…..this web page has the URL and Play button for my live stream, an y time I do a ‘virtual’ performance….real Life shows are rarely broadcast live..Too busy performing

After having put ‘drop d’ on a long hold over fall and winter, I decided to embrace it again….couldn’t remember a THING of what I used to do, but came up with ths….and well, I Suck at taking my Own video’s…so here is what I’ve done, a little MagiX, lots of photos that seem to fit the lyrics (all originaL) suzenjuel.com

In all my years as a Musician, from pulling in a great income, to falling apart at the seams of my guitar strings…I’m beginning to see, at the point I am in my life…that the Virtual Gigs are a BONUS as far as earning at least half of what you’re worth, if that. However, at the point I’m at in my physical world, the one that surrounds my back yard, alleys and local flavors, I am again…..working on my new Emerging from the ashes of taking over a decade off…..to raise a family…so to say.

So in the past few weeks, I’ve done several local, live shows…in St. Paul and Minneapolis, for virtually nothing.  I’ve cancelled Virtual Online shows, in order to take the exposure to the local scene. I’ve been paid a total of $17.00. Yeah…for over 3 hours of performing!!! Maybe because I’m ‘again…new’….perhaps because I am solo, and no longer use a band (too much of a pain in the ass, to worry about anyone, other than myself)….So in my Studio, I sit in my Pajamas, guitar in hand, a cold drink on my desk…perhaps a burning cigarette (if it’s autumn)…and a Muse that tends to never sleep for days, or sleep for too many days, leaving me feeling useless, when I can’t produce new images, be it Paint or Lyrical Grooves…… Read more

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Ya know…I Never understood it, but when Autumn nears, my sensory world escalates to what some would call an acid trip. Everything is brighter and bolder, the wind doesn’t just blow, it actually whispers things…birds don’t Just Fly, they’re preparing for the transition just like most everyone, in some way is.  It’s CRAZY that a large number of people I know, have all gone thru the ‘seasons change’…those with mood disorders are certainly more prone to this, than anyone else I know. I know 4 people, that all in the same 2 week period, that all went back into some rare habit…my ‘recovering’ friends…most have relapsed…and most, do it ABout This Time of the year…..those who quit smoking, start again, for a brief encounter…Hoping it passes SOON for them all…including my own personal struggles with this time of year.

It’s Euphoric when the sun shines at a different angle and the wind blows from a different direction. Everything feels like a beautiful sunburn on the world…the colors get deep and brilliant on the trees, the reds and golds are so astounding, the light scent of earths decay blows thru the screen windows…and no matter HOW many times I’ve seen seasons change, fall Always has the Strongest Impact on my senses!!! My paint brush finds it’s own way to stroke the paper, words find odd places inside phrases running through my head, I’m more accident prone, I’m more distracted, and I’m far more aware of it all, then any other time of the year.

I used to run a support group, many years ago, for those that have been touched with Bipolar, because of the Wicked Beautiful way it works. I remember Every Spring and Every Fall, the massive and obvious changes that took place. Creative souls  are blessed with many gifts, however, the cost of those gifts is steep and the moods that ‘can’ accompany them are sometimes frightening for those who lack the Knowledge of how it all works…it’s different for everyone. To this day I am astounded at the ignorance that surrounds such a ‘disorder’ as some call it…to most of us, it’s a perfect order of thought that gets seriously paved into paper, to words, to music….it’s one of the most glorious things..it’s Built in Therapy! God Knows when our minds are on a journey to do nothing but create, we need all the therapy we can get!!!  I’ve learned..over and over again…many of what ‘others’ might call ‘disorders’ are perfectly organized, because it IS how we see the world.   .  I once wrote…. Just because You see the sky as blue, doesn’t mean I don’t see it red…. it’s the SAME SKY!!! it’s ok that different people see it as a diff. color…it’s just perception. Without the ‘creative souls and the madness of the muse’ you can count on the fact that many coffee shops would be empty of art, radio stations would have less music, the world would still  be flat …. Look at what the “Creative Madness’ has done for the world!!! The greatest writers, artists, mathmaticians and thinkers of our time, were all touched with that Certain Kind of Madness….such a relief to k now…we’re not the ONLY ones who feel crazy..it’s simply because the majority of people see the blue sky….some of us still see it red…no one needs to convince anyone .. differently, but it’s a wonder to see the world through anothers eyes….

Now I have no idea where I was going with this, except I feel compelled, at this time of the year to bring up the ‘order of my thought’….it always puts things into perspective for someone, if not just myself.

You very likely know someone going thru some Head Over Tail Headspin….it’s actually amazing if you get to be a part of it, however it can be pretty bizarre to, if you don’t know what to expect…but the VERY THING you feel compelled to do, is often your built in therapy. I always feel compelled to draw, or create music….if I don’t do this, I will surely have let some part of my soul wither off…and that’s just not going to happen!! Every opportunity to create, has to be taken….it just does. Even if it’s indulging the muse for 5 minutes, when you FEEL her knocking, it means she’s got something for you to present to the world!

Wrote this song out of a general perception and point of view on how people tend to look at an artist…lots of word play…recently recorded song…thought I’d experiment with a recent video…ya know…maintain and all that lol Looking forward to your feedback! suzenjuel.com for Calendar and updates

WOW a lot is happening! I haven’t updated in a bit, in between 3 mice who passed on (2 because of JuJu my lovely murderer ferret) lol!!! And another just passed on his own…..THEN I celebrated an amazing 12 years of marriage with the Love of my Life. My grandaughter Alexis was born….on our 12 year anniversary…how COOL IS THAT!

There she is…..I keep hearing that Stevie Wonder song in my head EVERY TIME I see this little amazing bundle of love…’ Isn’t she lovely….’ that song has been stuck in my head since she was born. JUNE 6…4.pm…same time my husband and I celebrated the RECEPTION when we got married.  Pretty amazing eh?

ON the other hand….

HOUSE PARTIES!!!!

I do them! Want to have me at your place? Send the invites and get a group of people who Love live music….and I’ll be there. You can email me direct at suzenjuel@gmail.com      In the VIRTUAL world, I have not been performing nearly as much as I once did, and for obvious reasons…Summer is here, life is CRAZY!!!!  But I don’t forget my friends, my family, my fans…FFF!

I have written a few new songs in the past month or so, … It’s been a LONG TIME since I’ve written THREE in a month…so I feel great about that. They will be available on the new cd…..(not date set yet, but absolutely this year)  As far as my last CD “Untitled #13″ you all rock, that bought it!!! And if you didn’t…well just go to the Tab at the top of the page #13…and get it FOR GODS SAKE!!!!! LOL

I will update in a Proper way, soon, right now life has me by the hair and as long as it doesn’t YANK it out, I’m cool! I’m looking forward to a summer filled with Music, Jams, Friends and love!

Peace and i hope to have you around, when I do the next show…..IF you listen online, well HELL..you can just hit that PLAY button on this main page!!! Or, join Second Life ™ –free- and search JueL Resistance…that’s me, in the virtual world……I perform from time to time online…and of course, the RL gigs….

BIG LOVE n Peace and Happiness and Stars to all of you!!!

This was recorded on May 22nd in Grand Forks, North Dakota for our first show of the day, taking place in the park…intimate sort of crowd….great performances by Heidi Stink and Mj Kroll as well… check out flickr.com/suzenjuel for some pic’s etc…or suzenjuel.com

Filmed at Rumours and Innuendo on April 30th 2010 suzenjuel.com Untitled #13